so you want to be like a clone? yea, way to be original there OP. And btw females need 25,000 calories a day what your doing is a crash diet, and will make you feel miserable. Your going to end up sterile because you don't have any fat. And why can't you be nice and respectful now? you have to be pretty to be that way? to me you sound like a ugly ass

"...when I get there, I'll treat people with respect and kindness"

You're failing at that already. Clones, OP? Better quit while you're ahead, because it looks like you're ending up like those people you're insulting. It doesn't matter if you're respectful and kind selectively.

Yep, that's healthy.
There's a reason you are ALWAYS encouraged to talk to your physician before embarking on any kind of weight loss program. I suggest you do that. They can not only confirm that your plan is healthy/unhealthy, but can also help you build one that will work the best for you.
I sound like an infomercial.
Anyway, beyond that, you're kind of a judgmental twit. So you have NEVER met anyone who was pretty and nice? Or did you just assume they were mean because they had something you didn't?
And you are calling them 'clones' now? Wow, what did they do to you? So...are you going to get pretty and then just be nice to people who you judge to be ugly? That sounds pretty messed up. Or are you going to be nice to the pretty people too, whilst in your mind just thinking how mean and clone-like they are? What a fake friend you must be.

Careful, if you cut your calories too low like that, your body will go into starvation mode and will retain anything it can, not to mention your brain and basic bodily functions needing more energy than that. Consult a nutritionist, or at least a website based on actual health and not just being thinner than death.

Your secret is also very confusing. It's like you're trying to justify your sounding extreme diet by saying "but I'll be nice to people!." Can't you be nice to people now while keeping yourself healthy? It sounds like there's more going on here and you're just making excuses to keep yourself from having to face it. Good luck, I hope you can stay healthy and get to the point where you are happy with your body-image and can still be nice to people.

I found a thinspiration site last night and the OP there showed she only had 300-ish calories a day.

I wish I could do that.

You sound like you're a beautiful person inside for wanting to show people that you care, but you don't have to starve yourself to do that.

So basically, you are going to starve yourself and ruin your health to prove a point that has already been proven. Wow. Real mature.

That's messed up and pointless.

If you skip meals you're going to end up gaining weight in the long run.

You NEED to eat *at least* 1,500 calories with all of the exercise you'll be doing, otherwise you'll put your body into starvation mode and you'll gain fat, rather than lose it.

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I used to chew on my Barbies, mostly their feet. I have tons of Barbies missing feet now, which is okay, because I lost all the shoes anyway.

I chewed a Ken's foot off in nine seconds flat (counted) and realized I had a problem. I haven't chewed a doll's foot off since. :D I'm a little bit proud of myself~ Now I just buy packs of mechanical pencils and chew on the grips.

I used to wrap my barbies in toilet paper and then hang them.

It's no big deal, kids do weird stuff.

Colouring is normal.

That's okay. I can always describe various, elaborate forms of torture to my friends in bloody, morbid detail. It really creeps them out. ^_^ You're not alone, hahaha

But um...I'm getting the feeling you don't still do it. So uhh....I guess I'm the crazy one. Not you.

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I had a cousin who would discuss in morbid detail exactly how she was going to torture and eventually murder her dolls. She turned out fine. Kids do strange things sometimes.

totally reminds me of the beginning of the movie 'the butterfly effect'

Possessed color-changing paper? Ooh, creepy.

No, you aren't.
What exactly did you expect your mum to do? Send you to a psychiatrist? Didn't you just say you weren't crazy, though?
Many children do what you did; nothing unusual about that. However, if you went around telling people at school that you stabbed your dollies with butter knives, they might pick on you and call you a freak. Your mother obviously didn't want that to happen to you.

I've been dating someone for the last eight months, and we've yet to kiss. Maybe it's because I can never stop smiling when I'm with him, who knows; but the absence of one way of showing affection doesn't need to define a relationship, it's those smiles and that shared happiness that will make her feel important, trust me. A big, honest smile means just as much as a kiss, without some of that riskiness that can make it scary.

Talk to her and if you cant't tell her(for reasons)ask her friend to tell her.

The next time she asks, tell her what you've just told all of us.

Then talk to her about it. It's okay to be nervous. I was nervous the first time my guy and I kissed. It was slightly awkward, but it was still nice and right as it happened, the awkwardness went away. It's totally okay for it to be awkward the first time. Once you get over the awkwardness of the first kiss, it gets easier. I hope that made sense.

Tell her. Don't post it on here. If you really don't want to tell her, make sure you still make her feel special.

Just take your time. It'll happen when it happens.

Okay, I'm going to sound like some stupid kid here, but I've never kissed my boyfriend, and our 10 month anniversary is in a week. And I'm not saying that's going to work in any other case, but for me it just does. And yeah, your girlfriend may not be like that at all, but it's always a possibility. Not that you want to never kiss her, but still.

I once read a story about a girl, who one her first kiss, accidentally smiled and the guy kissed her teeth.
Not helping, but this just reminded me of it.

That's how it was with my ex-boyfriend, he was scared to kiss me. Just take your time and if she really cares, she'l wait until you are ready to kiss her. Don't worry, you have a right to be nervous, I was too when I first kissed someone. Just please take your time and don't rush. Wait until you are ready. :)

You could take your sweet time and not kiss her until you think you're ready... and risk making your girlfriend feel a bit neglected. On the other hand you could just... do it. Just seize her and kiss her, quickly. If it's quick, there'll be less margin for error. Plus it's not that hard. Grow a pair, come on.

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Okay, so, I understand that you must be nervous about kissing your girlfriend and everything, but really, if you don't kiss her soon, she might think that there's something wrong with her-or you-or your relationship, and you.don't.want.that. Anyways, you want to kiss her, she wants to kiss you, JUST GO FOR IT!
Who knows if you'll do it wrong? How will you know if you don't try, eh?
Just go for it, before it's too late, okay?
I mean, just do it.
Goodness.
-The Dreamer.

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When are you supposed to kiss somebody for the first time? I always thought you were supposed to wait until the third date to french kiss somebody. Or are you supposed to do that from like, the first day you started dating or at the end of the first week, or...?

I think that is a very normal fear. My boyfriend really wanted to kiss me, but I'd been so afraid of messing it up because it was my first kiss. He kissed me goodnight one night and I was so surprised I didn't even have time to worry about screwing it up... it just happened, and it was perfect! Try to just relax, and I'm sure it'll go fine:)

Now you're inventing a phobia. And I thought people couldn't get more dramatic.

Not to be nit picky, but that's not a phobia. So....yeah.

Talk to her. I feel as if 90% of the secrets posted about couples could be resolved by a simple conversation. If you guys are dating there must be at least some amount of trust and liking each other.

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I am only pre-diabetic but my parents make me eat as if I were full blown diabetic and honestly it does suck in that aspect. I am a recovering annorexic and bulimic and because I too have to eat regularly to stop from getting the shakes or passing out, it is keeping me from my dream body (the same one as the OP's). To all of you here who are pointing out that being skin and bone is gross, please realize that to a girl who has never seen what her ribs look like and whose thighs have always touched and who gets her cheeks pinched because they are "soooo cute and chubby", a stick like figure would be a blessing. OP I feel for you and while I am glad that you are staying alive, I am sorry that you are not able to look how you want to. I just want you to know that you are beautiful to me and to please keep smiling because you will win the heart of a guy who will love you just the way you are.

Spoiler Alert: Flesh and bone isn't attractive.

*Now I need Violet's profile picture to make the statement complete*

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I don't think being skeletal is any more attractive than being overweight...

I'm a type one diabetic. I was underweight when I took shots. But you definitely aren't ugly. It doesn't have to define who you are as a person. And if someone has told you that diabetes makes you ugly, karma will whoop their ass soon enough.

>:c My sister is a type-one diabetic and she's a perfect weight for her age. She isn't even overweight (doctor says so). She's not UGLY and you can't even see where the needles go in her skin.

Stop being a bitch, type one diabetics AREN'T ugly.

having a meat on your bone is beautiful. Honestly, if your bones show a lot, guys find it a turn off. Being healthy is beautiful. <3 You are beautiful just the way you are.

Seeing bones ain't pretty. At least, in my opinion.

If being pretty is that important to you, you must be very shallow.

1. Healthy is beautiful. That crap you're striving for is just gross.
2. Stop whining about your Diabetes. It could be far worse.

I understand what you're feeling,( i'm type 1 as well) but maybe to help you stop this problem of yours you can eat heathy foods to bring your blood sugar up (fruits veggies etc)

Yes, it is so sad that you have to stay alive by being ugly. My heart cries out for you.

One of my best friends is type one diabetic. She has a pump, and no real weight problem. =/
She also doesn't revolve her damn life around it. She's a whole person, who just happens to need to check her blood sugar. It's not a pity party every time I'm around her. If it were, I would stop giving a damn. You sound obnoxious to be around, and like you think your disease is the only reason your life isn't perfect. Get over it. Everyone has problems.

first of all, you don't need to be super skinny to be pretty.
second, you don't need to be pretty to be happy.
third, the first part of this 'secret' has absolutely nothing to do with the last line, so WTF?!
last, this. is. not. a. motherf*cking. secret.

my mom is type one diabetic she injects needles in her body all the time and she is a big woman but that dosnt mean she isnt beatifull, its your personality that makes you beatifull not how you look

its so sad how i ran out of fucks to give for this 'secret'

Holy shit, seriously people?
Yes there are people who have it worse, but that doesn't mean OP should be swept under the rug and left to deal with it herself / himself.
The point isn't to compare people's problems, it's to support them.

"Unlike others, I am alone for real."
This comment irritates me so much that I can't even feel bad for you.

Assuming you are not alone. There are almost 7 billion people walking the earth with you. Nobody is alone.

Whoa. Is your little brother not a person? Because if you're hiding some Martian in your house...

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I understand where you are coming from. It's just my mom and I living in this big house because my brother and sister are off in college. What I did was join sports and after school activities! When the sports are done I had friends from the sports that I would invite over!

Get a life.

Stop the pity party. I'm sorry, but it's your fault you're alone.
If you are still in school, make friends there, if not - get a job and hang out with your colleagues. I highly doubt your mum would mind you leaving the house for work.

If there is REALLY no way for you to go out, let me introduce you to the Internet and social networks.

Also, if you honestly think no one in the world is as alone as you are, STFU and GTFO.

i usually hate to critisize a secret.... ill try my bestest not to but you may be alone that doesnt mean your the only one who feels alone. you may actually "be" alone but some feel alone. even when they have people who care about them. sometimes its not enough. and its sad to be alone like you :( i apologize but that doesnt mean theres no one else who feels the same way. thousands of people do. im sorry for my comments, they may not have been the nicest

Yes. You are obviously the loneliest person in the world. No one else who says they feel alone could possibly feel as alone as you do.
I'm sorry that things are crappy for you, but there are many people in the world who are alone "for real", not just you.